Incomplete

living in this world is so full of uncertainties, you'll never know what will happen the next minute or even the next second...
sometimes, things just happen before you even know it...
however, it's often too late when you realize the truth ...
the truth is what has happened can't be rewind...
life isn't like movie or music, we can't rewind it or undone it...
whatever done is done, whatever hurt is hurt ....
this is the reason why people always regret in the things they have done...
coz we never realize the impact or result of our doings...


truth vs lie
sometimes, knowing the truth is worst den being lied by someone...
however if you were to ask me, i would rather lie if the truth is unacceptable...
i understand that to keep someone in the dark is bad, but often a lie is better than telling the truth...
sometimes, knowing that it's a lie can also be hurting...
however if you were to ask me, i would rather not speak than to lie...
however if telling the truth, lying, and not speaking is not applicable... i might choose to leave...
often, people hate to be lied and kept in the dark ...
however, telling the truth can hurt 100 times more than lying...
so, to lie or to tell the truth ?

Lying is bad, but sometimes a lie is more beautiful than the truth... as the truth is often ugly...

i've been trying to understand myself for a long time...
most often, i'll be lost and unable to find the true me...
however, i always do things following my heart... neglecting what's beside me...
i do understand that i always do things ended up hurting people i care...
and often realize it after things can't be undone...
calling me a "jerk" or "bastard" is the best word i think...
this time, i did things against my principle and go with my feelings again...

a glass which is broken is unable to mend, even if it's mend, the cracks are still there... as it'll never be the same again...
a bucket of water which is poured away is unable to collect back, even if it's collected back, the amount or quality of it will never be the same again...
a piece of paper which is torn is unable to glue back, even if it's glued back, there are still holes... as it'll never return to the original...

Life is unrewindable once the play button is pressed....

Backstreet Boys, Incomplete ~

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

L-O-V-E != Love

if someone were to ask me about "what is love ?" i will tell him/her that love is about commitment, responsibility and care in general definition. However, if were to ask me to describe love in my own point of view, i will say that love is depending on one's heart, where one will know when love comes without any logical definition... Love comes and go without someone noticing it... it'll be gone forever once someone misses it... However, if one is able to read the signs about it arriving, one will be able to grab it and never let go...

L-O-V-E, Natalie Cole ~~

Sometimes, one will tell you that which belongs to you will be yours sooner or later, but i don't believe in this kinda nonsense.... Why do i call this nonsense ? it's because, nothing will be determined if one just sit there and wait... yea, you might call waiting as waiting for fate... (if you believe in fate) Yes, i do believe in fate... strongly, i believe that everything in this world, in life is fated, where who and who become friends, who and who become couple and who and who become enemy... However, i believe that when fate comes, one must learn to grab the fate... which pure waiting for fate is crap and useless ! To me, once fate arrives... if one is unable to see the signs and grab it, it'll be gone and not for temporary while its forever... which makes one regret in the future... Therefore, if you learn that fate has arrived ... where you think he/she is the right one... never let it go when you didn't even try ....

爱我别走, 周杰轮 ~~

In my point of view, as what i always tell/advice my friends ... Trying to win someone's heart is actually the same as doing business ( if you understand how is business ) where the right amount of investments and effort will do the trick ;-) ... *confused* ? haha Talking about love, i will once again congratulate my sis as she had stepped into the sea of love being able to share happiness and woes with her husband which now i call him my bro-in-law... I witnessed my sis's wedding last sunday(7/9/2008), a memorable event of the year ! I'm happy, very happy that my sis has finally get married with her love one... I admit that i really enjoyed the moment of marriage where couples work hard for this very memorable once in a lifetime day ...

The very handsome groom and the utmost beautiful bride (my beloved sis)

There, as i had always tried to help my friends in their love relationship problems... i had gone through different types of cases where different people manages relationship differently where different relationships results in different outcomes...

Whether it is happy or unhappy, i always take it as a lesson or guideline of my life where i'll use it as reference if one day the situation occur within mine...

Love is sweet, if one knows what it is ... however, love can be bitter if one feels the core of it ...

Future

Future ? This question seems to be surrounding me a lot lately.
The reason of this topic surrounding me is because of we're gonna graduate very soon ... yea ! how time flies...
graduating indirectly means we're gonna be out of job ! omg, how's the true life out there after we say bye bye to studying life ?

Seriously, i've never been thinking of my future in a really strict manner as i still have another 3 months to go ... but yea, my frens shared their opinion about what they really wanna achieve in the future, after graduating .. some of em had found their job,
some are still pondering,
some never even think or the truth is actually dare not to think of it....
Well, talking about future... my fren shared something real interesting with me which actually speaks my mind...

I believe that living in this world should be like, live life cool or live and enjoy life ! yea.....
living happily is defined differently by different people who has different perspective and hopes on their own life... many wants to be successful ... means rich ? *wondering*
As what i always wish for ... a simple life with a wife, kids, a house, a car, a steady job .... but who knows ?
Life is already so difficult, however to achieve a simple life isn't easy at all considering inflation rate, economy crisis, value of money dropping, price going up ... how much is enough to survive ?
Judging from my knowledge and education level now, i wonder what will i be doing in the future ?
ain't good in programming, ain't really good in communication, ain't really good in networking...
What's my future's gonna be like ? *unimaginable*

Happiness?
Speaking of this word, to say is easy, but to achieve is actually difficult depending on the level on how contented and satisfied one can be about their own life.
However, talking back on what my friend shared ... he said that, to be happy and contented... one can actually feel it by just looking around at how many family members i'm having now, the number of frens that i have, which you actually has a bunch of brothers ( you know who you are ! :) ,glad that i have ya all) which never betrayed or left me behind...
At the very least, i have the opportunity to get my tertiary education done, have a place to stay, have time for entertainment ( plenty of it ), have a car(SLK= Sexy Little Kancil :D) which allows me to travel around conveniently ( thanks to my mum ! love ya ),
have enough money to spend ( thanks to my sis, you've been great ! love u 2 ) !
So i would say that, one must learn to be contented and satisfied... as happiness is actually simple !

Simple = happiness, learn to be contented ! however, treasure what you have instead of searching for more ...

while waiting ...

well, while waiting for my download to be completed....
i'm back blogging and hell yea, i feel better now and have extremely good mood in typing altho there's still loads of crappy fyp stuffs i haven't done yet.
thanks mei san for the motivation !

well, as wad my lecture (Mr Tan) said today, life is like a basketball game.
it's divided into four quarters which we as a player has to play our life like a basketball game,
thinking of strategies and planning ahead on how to win in the first quarter of life and continue winning till the end of the game. Yet, it was in terms of financial of course ...
By being able to achieve the goal or win in the first quarter of our life, which is the age of 25-35, we'll be able to achieve somewhat called financial security which is extremely difficult to achieve.

However, in my realistic and mature thinking of life ... YES, money in the fact IS important and hell yea, i definitely wanna earn more than anyone else and live the life as a king ! Being successful in life is a dream, a hope and a wish !
But, the truth is. ... in my super humbly opinion of my lame thinking about life, i dun really care a damn about earning or achieving like 100k per year or having a savings of 500k when i open my bankbook in the age of 25 or 30....

In my definition of success is definitely different from many people.
Many people thinks that being successful in life means u're earning more than anyone else, being one of the pioneer or the richest man in the country or maybe the whole world.
In my way of thinking, i do not think that being successful is defined as being rich...
Even if the world's simplest and lamest thing being successfully completed is already successful !
Think of it as someone who has never cooked before, not even instant mee... yet when he/she finally determined to learn to cook and finally learn how to cook. Even know he/she cant cook like a five star hotel restaurant chef, he/she is considered successful...
What i'm trying to express is that, the level of successful shouldn't be aimed as high as being the best in the world instead of being best in ur life !

Yea, this world actually goes like that ! what people say is good is good, what people say is bad is bad.
This is because of cultural and social norms that influences everyone to think and do as what other people thinks is good !
I do think that there ain't right or wrong in this world, it's just whether u did it with a conscience clear.

Sometimes i do wonder, human are full of desire... isit god despises us or created us just to c what are our limits !
Sometimes i do wonder, being contented easily is good or bad ? i'm a easy contented person, damn easy to be satisfied and that's y i dun have dreams like being rich or being known by everyone. kinda pathetic huh ? :p

Anyway... my download is complete....
will continue in my next post ...

Life is full of unexpected, so cherish and live the life u wan .... therefore regrets will not occur when u look back ...

Indulging in Flights of Fancy

omg omg, recently there are too many things to do !
assignments, fyp should be my top priority of thinking, i shouldn't be thinking of other things now...
Bt as a piscean, it is in my instincts that i'll be stuffing loads of rubbish in my mind.


Yet, i should not even be posting about my flights of fancy in this blog, rather sad cause i'm unable to come up with my -sUx- philosophy ... T_T

Life,
anyone in the earth really do understand the true meaning of life ?
Who is able to give me a definite definition of Life ? i doubt no one can tell me ...
*sigh* i dun even know what's going on in our lives .... *wth m i muttering!* zzz

Love,
Has been running in circles about this word. I doubt i understand what it means...
Has gone through much of it, but never understand even a tiny bit of it...
Just a coward, a guy who dare not face the truth, where never even tried to give a little but always take it for granted...
Just another Noob that always tries and give advices and come up with plenty of lame theories that actually dare claim it true !
Just another JERK that thinks that everything is fated ...
WTF WTF WTF !!!

How i wish i could
stop indulging,
stop thinking,
stop hallucinating,
stop imagining,
stop taking things for granted,
stop fogetting my commitments and priorities,
stop coming up with lame philosophies ...

p/s : damn emo now, pls ignore this load of crap .... will be better soon ....

Updates of My Life

Recently my life has been in a mess, wondering wad's my future going to be like. I've never been thinking about the future as i was never a guy like this. However, sometimes when problems come closer, only then I'll start to think of it.

Everything seems to be so rush recently, I'll have to face with reality very very soon cause I'm about to graduate. Hell yea, ! Finally, i won't have to be facing deadlines on assignments, practicals, and exams. Who the hell wouldn't enjoy it ? But life's gonna be different when i step my foot out in the society, start working and to finally worry bout every single thing in my life.

Sometimes i do think,
Wad if i was born with a silver spoon in my mouth ?
Wad if i was born with a unique talent ?
Wad if i was born with a gift that was to save the world ?
Wad if i was a superhero ? Wad if i was born in Africa ?
Would it change me ? How will i be ? will i be different ?
Haha, I'm such a dreamer :x

I'm so blur about the steps in front of me, how will i be leading my life in the future ? Will it be the same as i expected or will it be the other way round ? I've plenty of friends who thinks the same which they are aiming to be successful in their future earning plenty of money. But i don't really care bout earning more or less. I do believe that humans are not born to live for money, however today's world that I'm living in is totally about money and that's wad i dislike about life ...

The other day when we're having our MAD lecture, Mr Tan as usual will talk about economics and finance in our lecture which most of us actually find it interesting. Which actually brings us to the reality that we're soon gonna face. He talked about financial security and financial freedom which most of the people today are fighting to achieve. Financial security basically means that one is able to spend on the daily necessities of life without worries while financial freedom means that one is able to spend more than daily necessities which is damn hard to achieve where our inflation rate now has raised up to 7.7% ! Life still goes on ...

Relationship problems really do make a person's day, whether is making it good or bad. One can be happy if their relationship is stable and good while one can be sad and furious if the relationship goes out of hand where the worst part is the participation of a third party. Wad happens if the third party is actually ur best friend where u'll have to decide for love or friendship/brotherhood we call it ! Shall it be a fair challenge or let go ? For brothers or for love ?

Love -sUx- yet it's sWeet :) ...

Gd luck my friend ...