Process

Life, defined as meaningful o meaningless or rather the way my bros n I described it s –sUx- ? Life.. to many ppl seems to b enjoyable, meaningful, wonderful, normal life yet many felt tt life is meaningless, nt enjoyable, hard o rather –sUx- !

I wonder, life means differently to every1 is bcoz everyone thinks differently n hv diff expectations in their own life. Some ppl feel tt life is meaningful izit bcoz they had found their aim n goal of life n therefore work hard 2 achieve it. On the other hand, certain ppl tt say life is meaningless izit bcoz dey cant find the meaning of living n dun really know wad dey really wan n therefore live aimlessly bcoz dey cant accept the fact of wad dey hv 2 do in life?

Everyone has diff views n meanings of living in dis world. Bt 2 me, all I hv 2 say is life –sUx- ! In my point of view, life is so –sUx- cuz its so fixed tt everyone will hv 2 go through the same process everyone had gone through. Life is defined s a process 2 me.. a process 2 achieve enlightenment o 2 death. However, dis process is a long process n requires a lot of time n energy 2 complete it. During dis process, everyting done muz said 2 b meaningful n seems like everyone is goin through the same process.

How –sUx- can dis be ? We live yet requires food and water 2 survive (basic needs), in order 2 get the basic needs for our survival, we hv 2 work to earn money 2 get our basic needs ! When v were young, v were told 2 study hard so tt we’ll hv a bright future so tt v get 2 earn more money. By studying hard, v nt onli get 2 achieve our basic needs but also self-expectancy needs n actualization needs. However, v human r 2 greedy, we cant go through dis alone! We nd 2 satisfy our social needs ! We need LOVE , frens … Den get married, hv children den continue telling dem the same thing tt we were taught during young, den tell dem 2 study hard n blah blah blah … n finally the process ends !! Hooray ! :p …. N finally end of our life … R.I.P …

I duno if u guys realize tt life Is nt onli a process, I oso call life is about waitin, waitin 4ever, waitin 4 ur bf/gf/fren/human, waitin 4 results, waitin 4 pay day, waitin 2 grow old, waitin 2 die and waitin 4 durian 2 fall….. hehe… Den during the process of waitin, other processes r goin on durin the period of watin. We do sometin in the process of waitin, achieve o lose sometin n I guess tt’s wad make life meaningful. For example, while waitin 4 visual studio 2 b installed completely, I wrote dis lame, -sUx- blog !

Therefore, In order 2 live meaningfully … oways put the process in front of the result bcoz no matter wad u do, at last n the final result is ? … dead … so treasure the process of achieving results cz result aint evrytin … U might notice, durin the process of wadeva u’re doin, u’ll gain more valuable things than the results achieved …

P/s : I wrote dis in a slpy mode, so vry contradictin n –sUx- ! dun get furious n confused … Hv ur own perception of life n live on 2 hw u wan ur life 2 b… dun get influence by me cz I –sUx- !!! :p

Life -sUx-, so 2 live o nt 2 live ?

-NIck-

Flower heart (花心)

Flower heart (花心) were terms gurls used to call guys bcoz of having many gfs b4 o flirting around with any gurls tt guys c. Bt wad does flower heart really meant? Jz bcoz of having 2 many gfs b4 is called 花心? Gurls … ? Gurls were said 2 b more faithful than a guy can b. Bt 2 some extent, thr are gurls wic are more playful n花心 now… Agree gurls n guys ?

However, 2 me, I realized tt changing gfs/bfs is nt bcoz the guy/gurl is unfaithful o花心. It is actually the desire inside a human tt is making this happen. Human can nvr b satisfied with 1. The human desire is very unpredictable. Based on my point of view, guys changes gfs bcoz they cant get satisfied with their current gf. It actually goes like dis…

“No one in this world is perfect, n if a guy has a gf tt already has points 8 out of 10. Bt still the gurl lacks of 2 points, n tt other 2 points can b found in another gurl. Tt’s y guys oways changes gfs… Guys keep on pursuing their lost of points tt is insufficient to satisfy. Guys r jz out searching 4 their perfect princess n tt’s y “we” were never satisfied”

The above were jz based on my point of view n doesn’t apply 2 everyone. So if u think u’re nt, dun get offended n if u think u r, try n understand more. On the other hand, faithful doesn’t mean tt a guy does not hv any desire in searchin 4 their perfect princess, is jz tt they already found their “perfect princess” or mayb lack of confidence n tt’s y so many “leng luiz” out thr cant find bfs.

My fren oways say, he’s confused about finding gfs.. He wonders wad’s the purpose of havin a gf ? He asks himself, “finding a gf is 2 fill up my loneliness, or jz bcoz of everyone has 1 I nd 2 get 1 ?” n dis is also a question tt I had been asking myself recently. Seriously, we both duno wad v wan nw. Kinda confused ady. 2 me, mayb I’m still waitin 4 sum1 tt I couldn’t let go earlier… I wonder how long I can wait although I’ve had waited 4 a vry long time.. Mayb I’ll continue waitin 4 my “perfect princess” 2 appear n if she appears I wonder I hv the confidence 2 go 4 it bcoz I dun really nw how 2 cherish n maintain a relationship nw … wad a shame!...

Bleh!, bak 2 topic… tt’s all I hv 2 say bout flower hearts… Lfe –sUx- !

“Love –sUx-, so … 2 hv o nt 2 hv ?”

-Nick-

-sUx- Philosophy 2007

unimaginably sux !
undescribable sux !
unbelievably sux !
unwantedly sux !
unpredictably sux !
unexpectedly sux !
understandably sux !
unfortunately sux !
uniformly sux !
undiscoverably sux !
undetectable sux !
unforgivenly sux !
unanticapately sux !
undergroundly sux !
undesirably sux !

y izit so sux ?! coz life sux !?
if life doesn't sux , human sux !
human's mind is interesting yet a bit sux !
wad's so big deal bout sux ?!
sux is jz a description of my feelings !
ain't nth serious at all !
the weight of sux is uncountable,
yet sux is very exciting !
how do u feel when ur mood sux ?!
i'll let u know if u feel sux ?!
i'm writin 2 many sux here ...
dun get 2 sux after reading dis !
coz if ur mood feel sux , my blog get screwed up !
anyway cheers ^^ 2 "life sux" !
ppl who agree pls leave some comments =D
dun understand pls dun ask ,cz u're in the wrong blog !

life's so full of unpredictable, unimaginable, undescribable yet unexpected shyt !
( nt sayin tt shyt is ugly o negative , bt it's interesting ! )

although life sux, bt still there are meanings which are worth living for ...
so live through the sux life n find sumtin interestin n worth 4 in life !

Welcome 2 the sux world ! :D

U"Nique" Sux , The Emancipator !
2007 , copyrighted !

Reason

I'm sure behind many things, many actions hide reasons of doing it and because of that, human doesn't do things without any reasons including humans without rational, pervert or crazy. Reasons can be positive or negative, good or bad and even beautiful or ugly. Anyway, whatever we do lays a reason behind, whether is good or bad, positive or negative… the judgment falls on the eyes of everyone to judge. However, no matter is good or bad, the one who does it will oways take it as a good and positive reason.

The action I’m doin now also has a reason behind it, the reason I created this blog, the reason I’m doin this posting, the reason I picked this topic and many more reason bout what I’m thinking or doin. I’m jz gonna xplain a few reasons of my doings bcoz I’m not really good in xplainin things. 1stly, the reason I created dis blog is bcoz of motivation and influence by another blog I found here, (I shall not mention who it is…) she wrote many things wic I found quite interesting tt a mind of a 16 yr old can xpress so well. The other reason is bcoz I’m tryin to xpress my feelings n thinking.

I owned a few blogs b4 in frenster n msn space, and previously what I had done is posting bout my life n describing how -sUx- it is, came up with my own -sUx- Philosophy and blah … blah … blah … n so I dcided 2 make dis blog to share my -sUx- Philosophy and my views bout life n tt’s y I named it My -sUx- Philosophy. Interestin ? No ? Nvm … =\

Next, the reason I chose to start with dis topic is because I’m searchin 4 a reason s well. The reason I’m here, the reason I’m havin dis -sUx- industrial training, the reason of many tings… ther r many things we do with reason, however thr r still many actions , decisions r based on our feelings. I wonder dis is true coz jz suddenly I realized I’m like dis. Makin decisions based on feelings n nt rational reasons.

Okay den, I’ll start a lil bit bout myself. Well, describing myself is actually a difficult task s I dun really know myself well enuf. Once I tot I know myself n was full of confidence bout challenges in life o “love”. However, I was awaken by sum failures of life makin me realize that I’m jz a sore loser.. I’m startin all over again 2 understand n xplore the real me n I dun really know I can do it o nt.. Life -sUx- .. Agree ? wateva .. =D

I define life as an ongoing process (some philosopher sed it but duno who). Life is jz a process 4 us 2 die. Humans are born become babies >> learn the basic things of life (walk, talk, crawl n etc) à child (study) >> teenager (study) >> adult (study, work, get married, hv baby) >> old (ppl say old den enjoy life) swtzz =.= … >> finally DIE ! o mayb die younger… :p . Ther, life’s a process tt’ll lead us 2 our deathbed. In constant, life is jz meaningless….

However !!! although I say life is meaningless… bt tt doesn’t mean I’ll live life s meaningless s it is … sounds contrary rite ? hehe .. sumtimes I find myself contradictin with my tinkin n sayin …. My thoughts r contradictin n can b a bad influence if u dun realy get wad I’m sayin.

If u find life -sUx- n agree v me, u’re at the right spot !
If not btr get press alt+F4 o u’ll b scoldin n cursin me rite nw or mayb bein deeply influenced by me… hehe
Judge my thoughts by urself, wadeva judgement made is ur own responsibility.
But pls dun simply get urself influence by my thoughts n gt the wrong idea… coz its “Conradicting”
Lastly I’ll stop here coz “Life -sUx-“

Life’s Short, so Enjoy while u can tho Life -sUx- !

-Nick-